unfold

ga tau kenapa aku menulis kata itu di status bbm ku.
unfold....

terlalu banyak suatu kebetulan dan kebetulan lainnya, yang tidak pernah terungkap. suatu saat aku akan tau. suatu saat. jangan tanya kapan. waktu adalah sesuatu relativitas. Einstein, I used u.
asking to the life what it wanna tell me bout it.

what it means ?
watchung my monitor, oops... my brother monitor, coz I borrow his pc. I just hv my own notebook. ahahaha.. my mind blow to some place that I never know, in a minute I smiled, another one I'm stuck. what it was ??

something happen for a reason.

ada beberapa prinsip yang terlupa. yang harus ku kembalikan di dalam relnya, agar lokomotifku berjalan dengan optimal. dengan mesin terbaiknya, mengantarkan ku ke setiap perhentian terbaikku.

yang selalu terbesit adalah kata terima kasih. terima kasih untuk menginsiprasiku. terima kasih untuk setiap buku yang dikirimkan. terima kasih memberi makna dan bermakna untukku. what I want is so blur rite know. let my heart lead me. let's find our way and the journey of our life.

unfold...
some how, I know what it will be. what my heart tell me about it. Just walking with ur feet and courage all that I can do. God always with us.. ask God to keep with us, then God never leave u.

take a bath, get the key, and go to the beach.
have my me time.. to contemplation all I done, and what I should do for next. it's not about the new year eve.. it's about all the targets of my 28th year.

unfold... I will know soon
have a nice day all

Crazy Man that I ever know

I see ur blog rite now, smiling a little...
still u, still with ur imagination... perfectly. see this world with ur beautiful eyes.
I still hv a time to blinking, than gone. hehehehe...

I'm not trying to seeking u.
maybe I lost all that faith. I did my best.

only the take the good memory.

don't know why, I inspired by it.
I wanna explore the world like u. not used the lens like u, but by words. u take the picture, and I take the stories. write with my all.

the color of u is so perfect for me.

my wings ready to fly

the lonely ~ Christina Perri

2am; where do I begin,
Crying off my face again.
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed.

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.

Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

Too afraid to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night.
But the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me til I fall asleep.

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.

Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me and the lonely.

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

seem I like my rhythm

What I did this day it so insane for me

I knew the person who can give me some advice, maybe more insane than me. but, exactly this person can make me realistic. to see this world as the way they are. not what in my mind.

just created them as I wanted.

ga tau rasanya lebih lepas aja. menemukan permasalahan yang untuk gw bukan masalah, tyt hal itu selama ini gw endapkan dengan baik. akhirnya gw tersenyum. I like my own loneliness, so sorry that I asked some body to come in my chaotic places. ahahahahaha...

masih inget yang tiba2 aku mengatakan, "selalu ada rahasia di balik rahasia" dan dijawab dengan "elu terlalu memikirkan masalah2 yang harusnya ga usah lu pikirkan" maybe he's right. "Dan elu selalu ga menikmati apa yang ada di depan elu"

aku menemukan jawaban yang rasanya ga perlu didebat. karena aku menyukai kesendirian itu sendiri. inget juga temen lainnya yg mengatakan ttg hal ini, "lu denial, kak. sebenarnya lu memaksakan diri elu, lu menyukai kesendirian elu yang pernah hilang."

smile is the best reaction of it.

"Hanya 1 org yang paling tepat utk gw salahkan, yaitu gw"
"Hanya 1 org yang paling tepat utk ge tertawakan, yaitu gw"
"Hanya 1 org yang gw bisa paksa, yaitu gw"

dan debat aku utk itu.

ahahahahahhaha.. it's me. berapa banyak topeng yang aku gunakan sekarang ? rasanya semuanya ingin aku buang sekarang juga. cuma ingin menjadi diriku sendiri secara utuh, tidak menjadi siapa pun. bahkan sebenarnya aku lah yang menciptakan sosok itu sendiri.

jangan lakukan apapun.
cukup di sini utk aku. menertawakan kekonyolan yang aku lakukan.

aku berada di tempat terbaikku.
dan baru tepat kalau skrg aku mengatakan "let it flow"

aku akan memegang teguh apa yang aku yakini, rasanya aku ga perlu persetujuan siapapun. walau kegilaan ini terlalu gila. dan cukup sampe di sini. aku sudah melangkah sekali. dan rasanya cukup sekali, sebelum cetakan lainnya terbentuk.

don't ask me why....

hey December !!!
yell for a glory day...